What do I do I am sinking deeper,there’s no end to it.It’s like I am being swallowed by a big giant snake,no way to breathe,I have no strength to move,suffocating,suffocating,suffocating ,.

I want say so many things but can’t, hear so many things but can’t. I am crying out loud inside of me,but there is sound coming from my mouth.There’s no one in this whole universe that I can share my pain with.Can you hear me, someone? Anyone? I find no one.There is nobody I can talk to. Do you all feel like that or it’s just me.I feel suffocating inside,can’t even breathe,can’t cry,can’t say,can’t live ,can’t even die.I feel so miserable that I want to say goodbye.

On the first day of my job, I realize that This may be my first job and I may start my career in this job but it won’t necessarily be the last one I want to be in.

It’s just the first step to going somewhere better & I want to remember this moment and strive hard to go to the place I want to achieve. This frustration and this “look down on you” attitude of others makes me more and more determine about the fact that I am not made for it. I will go somewhere beyond this. That’s why I want to remember this somehow humiliating “me “ to be a better me in the future. I will just bite my teeth till then. this is just a letter to the future me, to get a better end.